Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Pregnant???

Anyone out there pregnant or wondering? Here I sit, ready and wondering. I have a daughter and I want more! My beautiful little girl is 2 1/2. She was conceived naturally after about 3 years of trying off and on. Fearful that I would get pregnant too quickly I waited and now, well its not just happening. We have truly been trying for about 2 or 3 months, but off BC pills for a year. We apparently don't have accidents. It seems like everyone around me thinks about getting pregnant and poof.....they're pregnant. I think, pray, hope, dream, and now scheme.....and no poof. I have heard every annoying comment you can imagine from " you are trying too hard", "if you stop trying it will just happen", "I'm just really fertile", and "maybe your eggs are bad". I mean come on how can people be so insensitive? I guess since they have never been in my shoes they may not realize how rude and hurtful it sounds.
I know that if I don't have more kids I have my daughter and that was a dream come true. The desire of my heart is to have more. I still have hope. I just wish there were more hopeful and helpful people around me that truly knew what I am going through. I truly wouldn't wish anyone to have to wait like I have, but it is comforting to know I'm not alone. I wonder if this will be my month or if I will start this journey again next month. I'll keep you posted. In the meantime I'll just keep hoping.
-k

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