Thursday, May 21, 2009

Oh The Talkative Two's

Oh, I know why the two's are so hard.....because they talk. Our little angels are fairly quiet when they are born. They cry, but don't talk. They have nonverbal ways of communicating. Then they find their voices and experiment with making as much noise as possible. But that is just noise. Most moms can learn to tune that out. Then by one year old they start picking up words. Oh so cute....she said,"da da da da!" or he said, "ball!" By two they have some cute fragmented sentences. We giggle and laugh about it. Then it happens one day....they have a vocabulary. It includes words that we can't ignore and phrases that leave us stunned. What happened to our cute little baby that babbled sweetly a few months ago? All of the sudden your cute little sweetheart is protesting and claiming their independence. I started teaching my Katie how to get dressed and put her laundry away. Now its ....."I do it myself, no help mommy...Katie do it...MYSELF!!!" I know she is learning and is not trying to be rude, but wow! Words do hurt our hearts and we as moms have to know that they don't mean it. I hope to teach Katie how to be gentle and sweet. I want her to know the difference in a soft answer versus a harsh reply. I pray that as her mom I can do that. However, until that day comes, it is important to document that even Katie.....my sweet little Katie, has found her independence and is indeed pushing all of her mommy's limits.

Who's pushing you to your limits?

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Nope Not Pregnant......

Well I started this morning as usual and then it happened, my monthy friend came. I have just recently started this blog so you may not know that getting pregnant does not come easy or by accident for me. We have been truly blessed to have had my daughter after 3 years of off and on trying. The last 2 months have been real focused months of trying, but today I started a new cycle. Honestly, I wasn't sad or upset. I keep thinking that I don't want to get my hopes up like I did the first go round. I was really hoping this would be it. I think because I am just tired of waiting...I feel ready....and I feel the pressure of those kind people in my life who ask...."when are you going to try again?" My daughter is 2 and she is getting too big to be my little baby. I am ready to have a little baby again. So, I know I am ready. I think because I have Katie with me it doesn't feel the same. I am going to look forward to each month that comes and know that soon it will be Christmas morning. I had a dream this week. Everyone in my dream kept telling me that I wasn't pregnant. Then at the end of the dream I was holding a baby girl. I don't know what God has in store for me or my family, but I am willing to be a mom many times over. So for all the ladies out there who are trying and trying and trying ...I'm with you. Write me and tell your story. I would be honored to post it here and share it. You never know who may read it and be encouraged.
-k

Friday, May 15, 2009

Who's got a 2 year old??

I do I do! When my baby turned 2 I knew our lives would change. I knew that she would grow up and learn new things. I helped her learn how to count and sing her ABC's.
"I do it...MYSELF!!!"
I showed her how to be independent. I loved seeing her do new tasks on her own. I still do, however her little mind has transformed now. She is a two year old; two and a half to be exact. She has a new phrase now, "I do it .....MYSELF!!!!" Okay so yes it is cute. Now that she can get dressed and go potty all by herself she makes sure we let her.

What is your two year old saying that makes you laugh or makes you cry???
Email me and I can post your stories too!

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Pregnant???

Anyone out there pregnant or wondering? Here I sit, ready and wondering. I have a daughter and I want more! My beautiful little girl is 2 1/2. She was conceived naturally after about 3 years of trying off and on. Fearful that I would get pregnant too quickly I waited and now, well its not just happening. We have truly been trying for about 2 or 3 months, but off BC pills for a year. We apparently don't have accidents. It seems like everyone around me thinks about getting pregnant and poof.....they're pregnant. I think, pray, hope, dream, and now scheme.....and no poof. I have heard every annoying comment you can imagine from " you are trying too hard", "if you stop trying it will just happen", "I'm just really fertile", and "maybe your eggs are bad". I mean come on how can people be so insensitive? I guess since they have never been in my shoes they may not realize how rude and hurtful it sounds.
I know that if I don't have more kids I have my daughter and that was a dream come true. The desire of my heart is to have more. I still have hope. I just wish there were more hopeful and helpful people around me that truly knew what I am going through. I truly wouldn't wish anyone to have to wait like I have, but it is comforting to know I'm not alone. I wonder if this will be my month or if I will start this journey again next month. I'll keep you posted. In the meantime I'll just keep hoping.
-k